I'm not dead... this is good... at least it was the last time I checked.
I pretty much forgot that I had a deviantart page... yes, I'm a bad artist/whatever.
Life continues to be excellent. things have been coming up 'Trev' for the most part.
Still working the same job, no complaints there really.
made a movie over the summer with Friends called 'The Adventures of Lemonman.' we wrote it years ago while we were doing sketch comedy out of the second city. I haven't seen the finised film yet. I seem to have lost touch with Jer (who directed and edited the movie. he was also one of us that wrote it.)


I've been lacking in the art department. The bits I posted today are pretty much all I've done recently.

I don't know whats going on with Fetus. I really want to do more, but I just don't have the time and dedication. Same with my Jesus pieces.
Really, if I had more time. I'd be doing that. but I hardly have time to sit at my home computer anymore.

anyway, thats all I have right now.
Just thought I'd let everyone know that I'm still alive and I still browse from time to time.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Take care

So yeah, remember that girl I wrote about the other day… yeah, shes fucking awesome!!! At the time I wrote the last entry… I wasn’t expecting to see her until late next week at the earliest. (shes in Florida until Tuesday night). Which is cool, I accepted that.
Well, she ended up coming over that night after I got off of work. We hung out for a little while, then we made out and cuddled for like 3 hours after wards… I felt bad because she had to be at work for 8:30am… (we finally passed out at about 5:30am)
So yeah, that would bring us up to Thursday morning now… well, she left from my house to go to work. And at that point, I knew I was going to see her about a week later when she got back… then I noticed that she forgot her watch at my house. So that gave me an excuse to stop by her work and see her again, even if it was for a minute or so, it was worth it.
So, after dropping off her watch to her, I went to work a 10 hour shift. The 9 hour mark rolled around, and I was chatting with her online. I mentioned to her that I wanted to see her again before she left, so she gave me directions to her house. So really, I’ve seen her 4 times in a span of about 2 full days and I was only expecting to see her once for our initial date on the Tuesday.

So yeah… things are awesome.

Its just weird… I’m so completely comfortable with her. You know how when you meet someone new, you’re a little reserved with how you really are… like you’re not as ‘kooky’ the first few meetings as you would be say a few months down the road. Yeah, I wasn’t reserved at all after our first date.

I really like her. A lot…

I bought us tickets to go see Bat Boy on March 18th.

Things are good! I’m happy.

T.

P.S. The Script for Fetus 16 is done. Will hopefully take some time over the 4 day weekend I’m currently on and finish it up. I would have done it by now, but I’ve been sick as hell… I’m actually feeling better now. So yeah. Hopefully soon.

Yesterday was odd… it had both an extremely negative and extremely positive outcome.
I’ll start with the negative…
Riley, my cat was put down yesterday morning due to health complications because of his age. He was 17 years old.
If I had found out the other day that he had to be put down, I would have taken it A LOT harder than what I’m taking it now. But we found out that he was sick in October. We thought this day was going to come a lot sooner than it did. And I guess knowing that his time was coming to an end, helped me deal with it a lot better.
Don’t get me wrong… I was a blubbering idiot most of the day yesterday. Putting him to sleep was probably the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life. Seeing him, alive, looking out the window of the vet’s office, sniffing around at everything one minute, the next, hes laying on his side, eyes open and not moving.
I keep thinking about that scenario, and every time I do, I almost break out into tears.

I had made a date on Monday to go out for drinks last night at 8:30. and I came close to calling it off because I was in ruins over Riley, and I didn’t want to break out and cry in front of a girl I had never met before. But I thought about it, and keeping myself cooped up in my room all night was only going to make things harder on myself. So I went out.
I kind of felt guilty for going at first… I should have been mourning Riley, not going on a date. But I am very glad I did.
I don’t think I have ever felt so comfortable meeting someone for the first time. Sure, I was nervous for the first little bit, but she is really easy to talk to. Doesn’t hurt that shes hot as hell either.
We chatted for 4 hours without 1 single moment of uncomfortable silence. The conversation just flowed really well.
All in all, talking with her really cheered me up a great deal.
So yeah, I’m hoping that things work out. Shes awesome, and I’d love to get to know her better.

So yeah. Odd day… I think it’s the first time I ever fell asleep feeling happy as hell, and extremely sad at the same time.

I miss my Riley…

So I started taking Zyban as of last Friday. My intent is to finally kick the smoking habit once and for all. I have 2 more days of smoking before my quit date, (which is this Saturday). To be honest. I think I’m ready to just give it up right now. Its been doing absolutely nothing for me in the past 2 days. And my cravings are a little easier to deal with.

The weird thing about Zyban… It makes me feel high… I was tripping out at work yesterday for about half an hour… which isn’t really a good thing when you’re talking to clients on the phone.

When I’m not tripping out… I’ve had this whole ‘meh, I don’t care’ kind of feeling. Like nothing can bother me at all. I’ve mellowed out a lot and I think it’s the ‘anti-depressant’ part of Zyban that’s doing it.

I’m going to be so glad when I’m not smoking anymore… I never should have started again.

Anyway, in other news. I’m going to start some serious work on more Fetus Projects. I’ve got some ideas for a few short pieces that I would like to work on, plus I would like to change the look of the comic a little. They yellow backgrounds just aren’t doing it for me anymore.

That’s all the news I have right now.

Cheers

T.

I feel empty right now… No desire to do anything at all. (which has pretty much been my whole life thus far.)
I need a change… something new and different in my life. I’d love to be able to go back to school. But that takes money which I don’t have. Sure, I could make it back with a better job I may acquire with my new found schooling… but what if it doesn’t go anywhere? Then what? I’m screwed. But then there’s the other side of the coin where I do get a better job and make better money. I think I have to sit back and take some personal inventory soon.

My recent ‘fling’ and I called it quits today. I don’t know how I feel about that yet. Is that a bad thing? I really feel indifferent about the whole thing at this point in time. We were only together for 2 months, which is more than enough time to get attached to someone… maybe we rushed into sex too soon… got a little too comfortable to quickly… I don’t know… I just don’t really care right now… maybe I will tomorrow.
Don’t get me wrong… I like her. I’d still like to be with her, but our personalities didn’t mesh that well to start off with and it was getting ugly at times. But if its done, its done… no big deal.

I’ve had so many ideas going thru my head for stuff I’d like to do in the past few months… but I honestly don’t have to patience to sit here and do anything. I’ll start something and get fidgety and have to go do something else. Can A.D.D. develop in 26 year olds?

I have been sculpting a lot lately. I’ll have to take some pictures and post them. I do it mostly at work while I’m talking to clients. My desk is covered in clay figures I’ve made. And a lot of people are noticing and saying how good my stuff is, which is awesome. (even though I know some people are creeped out by some of my stuff, its still nice that they say nice things.) My goal is to get a large chunk of clay and make something big. We’ll see how that goes.

That’s all for now.

Don’t worry, I’m not dead… just restless.

T.